Archive for July, 2010

Once again, the woman I’m hoping to become friends with didn’t call today.  I tried calling her several times, but it went right to voice mail.

If I HAD spoken to her, I’d have tried to set up plans for Wednesday or Thursday, since I’d assume that her husband would expect her to be doing stuff with him on the  weekend and my Fridays are pretty busy.

Less than an hour after I’d given up trying to call her, I received an email from the wife of the man we’re most interested in becoming better friends with, asking us to come over THURSDAY, which means that day will be too hectic for another get-together, and Wednesday will also be a train wreck of doing my hair and the prep for Thursday.

And that’s why God didn’t induce the other woman to call me, or help me to reach her yet;  being invited over to that man’s house like this, without any hinting or prompting from me, and with the reason being that we’re going to able to do him a big favor, do something important to him together, and enhance our friendship, rather than just making plans because it’s a holiday weekend, is HUGE…  and, once again, beyond anything I could have even envisioned much less thought to ask for.

God’s plan is clearly superior to my ideas.  I’ll eventually talk to and spend time with this other woman;  He’ll see to that.  I have FAITH.  Faith in His intention to help me and to do so in a better way than I could guess in advance;  I’m going to work on having faith that His plan will be infinitely better than whatever I was asking Him for.

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I spoke too soon

I posted a few hours ago that my faith that God would allow the man I most want to become better friends with to meet the heavy hitters that were available at the job my roommate brought him into for that exact purpose had not led to the desired action happening.  When my roommate got back from doing that job today (without  the friend, as his part was done), he announced that he’d learned that out of THOUSANDS of inputs for this job by multiple groups of work units, literally 2% had been chosen from which the final group would be picked…  and one of them is a high-profile one that our friend was responsible for!!  The heavy hitters will SEE IT!!


God DID fulfill the desire I had faith about, just in HIS way rather than the way *I* wanted.  Guess whose way is better?  My friend would probably have rather met the heavy hitters directly, but the message he hoped to give them about his work will come through just as well FROM his work;  yes, he’s not getting the thrill of a direct meeting…  at least not YET, because God might not be done…  but if he’d met them there’s no guarantee that he’d have been able pass along his message even if they gave him enough of their time to do more than greet them, it’s not like it’d be a natural part of any conversational flow that they’d have tossed at him, and this way they’ll be STUDYING his work and absorbing his message, which objectively is better for him.

Once again, God has given me a gift in a way beyond what I had imagined.

I have faith that the heavy hitters WILL see and check out my friend’s work.  I have faith that my friend’s work WILL be one of the final ones chosen.  And, I have faith that the heavy hitters and my friend WILL end up face to face as a result of this, and thus that it will be a total triumph.

I  need to give God more time to provide His blessings before I believe that a desired blessing isn’t coming;  there ARE blessings that I will NOT receive no matter what my level of faith, and that’s 100% right, but I must keep in mind that God blesses me beyond what any rational person could expect even a loving, generous God to do, because His love is just that immense, and be more patient.

I am so lucky.  I am in awe of His love, and want only to return it and serve His will, and make Him happy.  Faith, I’m coming to believe, is what makes Him happy, and to please Him I will spend the rest of my life trying to feel INFINITE faith.

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Faith is NOT a guarantee that we’ll get what we ask for.

I had pretty solid faith that the man that I most want to be better friends with would get to interact with the heavy hitters that were there somewhere where he and my roommate were working the past couple of days at our invitation;  it really seemed like that was the whole point of God giving us the gift of being able to bring him along.

It didn’t happen.

Disappointing, of course, as this would have greatly benefitted our friend, who’s a good guy, as well as our budding friendship with him.  I still understand and agree with the concept that God doesn’t give us everything we want for the same reason you wouldn’t give even the best-behaved child everything they want, but…  hopefully our friend had a good enough time that this moves us forward rather than setting us back.

Also, the woman I’m hoping to become friends with didn’t call on Friday like she said she would, or yesterday either, despite my faith that she would…  and I’m hoping desperately to not have to pursue her to try to start the friendship.  I still have faith that God will prompt her to call me before it becomes necessary for ME to call to keep things going;  the “coincidences” have been so thick on the ground that it seems utterly certain that God brought us together, and if I have to start chasing her it’ll make it very difficult to become friends, so…  well, He doesn’t HAVE to do it, obviously, and He doesn’t owe me anything after all He’s given me, or at all…  but I still have faith that He WILL, as I AM certain that He didn’t just bring me together with this woman to taunt me with what I can’t have.

On the plus side, I had faith that He’d help some animal babies that were trapped on the roof be taken away by their mommy before a hawk or Animal Control showed up, and He did;  He’s still listening, He’s just following the Plan and I need to learn to wait patiently rather than expect everything all at once.

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I had faith that an unresolved issue would be fixed today, even though if the idiot responsible was going to respond to my email and fix it it should’ve been YESTERDAY, because job emails went out then and I’d told her that was her last chance before I reported her, and in fact it was on my calendar to report her today…  but it DID get fixed today, and without further intervention from me, as I discovered when a job email showed up for the first time in AGES.

Tonight, one of my animal visitors brought her BABIES along when she showed up to eat!!  Such beautiful little creatures, even though they did stomp and eat half my plants, lol.

The new friend who was supposed to have called today didn’t.  I have faith that she’ll call tomorrow.

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I had faith that big $ would come my way today.  A company I’m not sure I even remember signing up with sent me a job that was not only well-paying but has a big bonus for the best performer…  and I have total faith that that will be ME, because with God’s help I really nailed it.

I had faith that a friend would call me today;  no particular friend, just someone, and I don’t get many calls so this was a bigger deal than you’d think.  And God came through bigger and better than I could have thought to ask for:  My roommate was told that he needed to bring in someone to work with him on a job he’s doing tomorrow, and this job will bring them into contact with some heavy hitters.  I instantly realized that the man I most want to become better friends with would be perfect for this, not just because he can do it but because these specific heavy hitters are ones that he’d very much want to work around.  I called his wife, she called him at work, and, of course, he then called ME.  This large favor we’re doing for him should get us in tighter with him, and I intend to strike while the iron is hot and suggest another get-together with them once the dust settles.  VERY cool.

I have faith that, having set this up, God will assist my friend to meet and talk to those people he’s hoping to interact with, in part because he’s a deserving person and in part because God clearly intends for me to continue making social progress and the better my friend does tomorrow the more kindly inclined he’ll be towards hanging out with me.

And speaking of friends;  the woman I hope to make a friend out of is supposed to call me tomorrow so we can set up a time to see each other next week.  I have faith that, since God very clearly steered us together, He will make sure that she calls and all goes well.

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I got a call today from the company that signed me on for a high-paying job yesterday;  they had more questions to verify that I qualified for the tiny niche they’re looking for.  When they put me on hold I said out loud that I had faith that God wouldn’t let me get so close and then lose it.  It ended up that they added a little more work and increased the compensation by 1/3.

I have been expressing faith that God would heal my mother of her health issues.  I can’t remember if I said I had faith that she’d not have to endure a lifetime treatment that they’d told her she had to do for one of the issues and she had in fact already started doing, but I’d asked God to somehow make it so…  and today He DID.  The doctor announced today that she didn’t have the health issue that required that treatment after all, that the problem was being caused by her other health issue, and thus that she can stop the treatment!!

And the biggie today:  I called the woman I met last week under circumstances that made it obvious that God was involved.  We discovered that we both love the same TV show, so we had that to bond over.   She announced that next week would be a good time for us to get together.  And…  she said that SHE would call ME!!  This is crucial, because before she asked ME to call, and now she’s offering to make some effort… so I’ve got a decent shot at befriending her.  I also happened to notice another show that she likes and mentioned today on the TV schedule, although I never noticed it BEFORE in the YEARS it’s been on TV, guess what THAT means, and watched it so I can talk to her about it.  It’s so much easier with God’s help, so much easier when you have faith!!

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One of the things I had faith that God would do for me today was something unusual;  that a friend (any friend) would contact me today, preferably by phone.  And someone DID call;  a new friend who had NEVER called to chat (we’ve been emailing recently, though) called on a puzzling pretext (as if her mind had been clouded and she didn’t recall what I’d already told her via email, hmmmmm), and we had a real girlfriends-type convo!!  I even remembered to end it myself rather than talking for as long as they’re willing like I used to do.  This was a solid step forwards for us, opening the way for ME to call HER, and hopefully to seeing her and her husband, who is the person I most want to get to know better, sometime soon.

There’s no coincidence to the timing;  I had faith, and God gave me what I was hoping for, except BETTER… I’m still amazed that this woman called me, that God gave me such a serious response to my faith.  He also filled me with His presence today, when I asked for that for the first time in a while;  I wish I had the words to express what it means to me to have Him staying so close and providing so much for me.

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