Archive for December, 2012

from JO’s sermon tonight:

we live in a society where mediocrity is the norm;  many people do as little as they can to get by.  they don’t take pride in their work, in who they are.  if somebody is watching they’ll perform one way, but when nobody is watching, they’ll cut corners and take the easy way out.  if we’re not careful, we’ll get pulled into this same mentality, thinkin’ that it’s ok to show up late to work, not look our best, not give it our all, but God doesn’t bless mediocrity, God blesses excellence.  when you have an excellent spirit, you do the right thing whether anyone is watching or not;  you go the extra mile, you do more than you have to.  other people may complain, go out lookin’ sloppy, cutting corners, but don’t sink down to that level;  “everybody’s doin’ it, everybody slacks off when the boss is gone at my company, everybody compromises at my school, everybody doesn’t take care of their yards in my neighborhood,” no, you’re not everybody, you’re a cut above, you are called to be excellent, God wants you to set the highest standard.  you should be the example your company uses as the model employee;  your boss should be able to say to the new hires, “watch this person, develop their skills, learn their habits, they are the cream of the crop.  they’re always on time, they always have a good attitude, they do more than they have to.”

when you have an excellent spirit like that, you’re not only going to see promotion, but you are honoring God.  a lot of times we think, “lemme go to church to honor God.  lemme read my Bible and pray to honor God,” and yes, that’s true, but it honors God to get to work on time, to be productive each day, to go out looking your best.  when you are excellent, your life is giving praise to God;  that’s one of the best witnesses we could ever have, because some people will never come to church, they’ll never listen to a minister, they’re not reading their Bible, they’re reading your life, watchin’ how you live.  don’t be sloppy.  when you leave the house, whether you’re wearin’ a suit or a pair of shorts, make sure you look the best that you possibly can;  you are representing almighty God.  when you have a spirit of excellence, you do more than you have to.  you don’t just do the minimum amount required, you go the extra mile.  this phrase comes from the scripture;  Jesus said:

Matthew 5:41 (NIV)

41 If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles.

back in those days, a Roman soldier, when they were traveling through the city, they could require by law a person to carry their armor for one mile;  after that mile, they would have to find somebody else.  Jesus said, “if they ask you to carry it for a mile, go beyond the call of duty, do more than is expected;  carry it 2 miles.”  that’s the attitude we should have, not, “I’m gonna go to work and do as little as I can to try to keep this job, no, I’m a person of excellence, I’m gonna go beyond the call of duty, do more than is expected of me.”  that means, if you’re supposed to be at work at 8:00, you show up 10 minutes early;  you do more than you have to.  you don’t start shutting down 30 minutes before the day is over, no, you go the extra mile.  some people go to work 15 minutes late, walk around the office, get a cup of coffee, get to their desk about 8:30, spend the next half hour surfin’ the internet, makin’ personal phone calls.  they wonder why they don’t get promoted.  here’s why;  God doesn’t reward sloppiness, God rewards excellence.

Genesis 24 (NIV)

24 Abraham was now very old…He said to the senior servant… I want you to swear by the Lord…  go to my country and my own relatives and get a wife for my son Isaac… 10 Then the servant left, taking with him ten of his master’s camels…11 He had the camels kneel down near the well outside the town… 12 Then he prayed, “Lord, God of my master Abraham… 13 See, I am standing beside this spring, and the daughters of the townspeople are coming out to draw water. 14 May it be that when I say to a young woman, ‘Please let down your jar that I may have a drink,’ and she says, ‘Drink, and I’ll water your camels too’—let her be the one you have chosen for your servant Isaac…15 Before he had finished praying, Rebekah came out with her jar on her shoulder… She went down to the spring, filled her jar and came up again.

17 The servant hurried to meet her and said, “Please give me a little water from your jar.”

18 “Drink, my lord,” she said, and quickly lowered the jar to her hands and gave him a drink.

19 After she had given him a drink, she said, “I’ll draw water for your camels too, until they have had enough to drink.” 20 So she quickly emptied her jar into the trough, ran back to the well to draw more water, and drew enough for all his camels.

Abraham told his assistant that the way you know you will find the right girl is…  (Abraham didn’t say it, see the verse quoted above;  the concept remains valid whoever said it).  a camel, after a long day’s walk, can drink 30 gallons of water.  this man had 10 camels with him.  if she had a 1-gallon bucket, she was offering to dip the it 300 times (um, probably not, no woman has that kind of strength, but the concept, again, is valid).  that’s goin’ way beyond the call of duty.  she is chosen to marry Isaac, who comes from the wealthiest family of that day.  God rewards excellence.  when you do more than what’s required of you, you’ll see God’s goodness in a new way.

you say, “I’m declarin’ God’s favor, promotion and increase is coming”;  that’s one part of it, but the 2nd part is, are you getting to work on time, doing more than you have to, better this year than you were last year?  your company shouldn’t get along nearly as well without you.  you should be so skilled, productive, valuable, needed, they can’t afford to lose you.  we live in a very competitive marketplace.  if you’re not growing, improving, learning new skills, you’re fallin’ behind.  if you’re at the same skill level today that you were 5 years ago, you’re at a disadvantage.  you need to take steps to grow;  whatever you do, get better at it.  take classes, find a mentor, study ways that you can be more productive, efficient.  don’t get stagnant;  an excellent person keeps growing.

there’s always room for improvement;  we can always get better.  when you’re a person of excellence, you don’t get stagnant;  you’re always takin’ steps to improve, lookin’ for ways that you can be better.  favor and excellence go hand in hand;  increase, promotion, reaching your highest potential, it is all tied to a spirit of excellence.  some people are driving a car that hasn’t been washed in 6 months;  if you don’t take care of what God’s given you, how can God bless you with more?   whether you have a lot or a little, whether it’s new or old, take pride in what God has given you.  when you have a spirit of excellence, it’s ingrained in you.  this building represents almighty God, we do our best to take care of it in a first-class way.  we represent God, and God is not sloppy, run-down, 2nd-class;  He is an excellent God.  that doesn’t mean that you have to have the best to represent God, it simply means whatever God has given you, take care of it the best you possibly can.  do what you can to represent God in an excellent way.

when our children were younger, we used to take them to Disneyland;  that place is always spotless.  take this to your own life:  your house, car, clothes, cubicle, office;  I’m not asking you to spend a lot of $, it’s all in how you choose to take care of what God has given you.  do it with excellence, knowing that you represent almighty God.  you may be in a situation where everybody around you is a little lazy, indifferent, undisciplined;  don’t let that rub off on you.  you be the one to have an excellent spirit, stand out in the crowd.  what kind of witness is it to our friends, neighbors, coworkers, if our yard is sloppy, our car is never washed, we’re always running late everywhere we go;  that’s not a good representation, not who you really are.  God made you as a person of excellence; maybe all you’ve seen modeled is mediocrity, but God is callin’ you to a higher standard.  He’s gonna take you places you’ve never dreamed of, but you’ve gotta do your part and stir up the excellence that’s on the inside.  don’t make excuses, come up to a higher level of excellence.

even in our personal appearance, how we dress, present ourselves, there are all different styles, we have different taste, one is not right and the other is wrong, you may not like to wear a suit, that’s fine, the main thing is make sure you present yourself in a way that you’re proud of.  don’t leave the house feelin’ sloppy, less than your best,  knowin’ that you didn’t take time to look as good as you could have.  you are a temple of the most high God;  God lives in you, take time to take care of yourself.  some of you ladies, you’re very good at taking care of others, you put the children first, you’re a great wife, you’re runnin’ the household, but you need to start takin’ time to take care of yourself.  go get your nails done, get your hair done;  it’s scriptural to take care yourself in an excellent way.  some of you men haven’t bought yourself any new clothes in 27 years.  you’re an excellent worker, a great provider for your family;  make sure you take care of yourself.  we represent almighty God, and God does not like sloppiness.  even around the house, of course we all like to be super-casual, but make sure you still look good for your children, spouse. ladies, get your husband’s credit card, go up to the mall, find something that makes you look like the masterpiece God made you to be;  now you men can thank me later.

when you’re at the store shoppin’ and something accidentally falls off the rack, don’t act like you don’t see it and just leave it there;  a person of excellence picks it up and puts it back.  when you’re shoppin’ for groceries and you decide you don’t want the cereal anymore, don’t just stick it over by the detergents;  a person of excellence takes it where it belongs.  somebody that has a spirit of excellence doesn’t park in the handicapped spot because they don’t feel like walkin’. when you have this spirit of excellence, you do the right thing, not because s0mebody’s watching you, not because they’re makin’ you do it;  you do it to honor God.  a person of excellence does the right thing even when nobody’s watching, even when you don’t agree, even when you don’t think it’s necessary.  sometimes you have to say, “God, I don’t feel like doin’ this, but I’m gonna do it unto you.  God, what my boss is askin’ me to do is not right, but I’m gonna do it unto you.  God, I didn’t make the mess, I shouldn’t have to clean it up, but I’m gonna do it unto you.”  some people are not seein’ God’s favor like they should because they’re not passing the small test;  bein’ more excellent may not be some huge adjustment you need to make, it may just be somethin’ small, like getting to work 10 minutes earlier, not complaining when you have to clean up, doin’ the right thing even though you don’t feel like it.

Song of Solomon 2:15 (KJB)

Take us the foxes, the little foxes, that spoil the vines

I don’t want somethin’ small to keep God from releasin’ somethin’ big into my life.  are there areas where you know God’s dealin’ with you about comin’ up higher?  any time God asks you to do something, if you will obey, a reward will follow.  whether you realize it or not, people are watching you.  even in small areas, make sure you’re representing God in a great way.  In the book  of Daniel it says:

Daniel 6:3 (ESV)

Then this Daniel became distinguished above all the other high officials and satraps, because an excellent spirit was in him. 

as a teenager, he was brought to Babylon; the king was training all these young men, and the best ones would become the next leaders.  Daniel had made a vow to God that he would always honor Him.  the Babylonians were worshipping idols;  Daniel was respectful, but he wouldn’t eat the king’s fancy food, he didn’t just follow along and do what everyone else was doing.  he made more excellent choices.

Daniel 6:3 (NIV)

Now Daniel so distinguished himself among the administrators and the satraps by his exceptional qualities that the king planned to set him over the whole kingdom.

it doesn’t say that God distinguished Daniel, and he got promoted, it says he distinguished himself.  the Message translation says:

Daniel 6:3 (MSG)

… Daniel, brimming with spirit and intelligence, so completely outclassed the other…

that’s what happens when, #1, you honor God with your life, and #2, you have a spirit of excellence.  you don’t compromise, you don’t just go with the flow, do what everybody else is doin';  like Daniel, you make the more excellent decisions.  when you have an excellent spirit, God will give you unprecedented favor, creativity, ideas, that will cause you to stand out.  you will outclass, in humility, those around you that are not honoring God.  are you distinguishing yourself, going the extra mile, doin’ more than you have to, makin’ the more excellent choices?  God is always dealing with us about some area to come up higher in;  maybe it’s to be more excellent in how you treat people, present yourself, in your career, improving your skills.  don’t let somethin’ small keep God from releasing something big into your life. you are called to be a cut above.  you have excellence on the inside;  now stir it up and bring it to the outside.  God is going to give you more wisdom, ideas, strength, creativity;  you’re going to outclass, outperform, outshine. God is going to promote you, put you in a place of honor, and you will fulfill your God-given destiny.

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On 12-12, I got a rare visit to “So, what DOES the sword mean?” from  9-8, with the search term “what dose a dream of swords in the mouth mean”;  I almost posted about it, but didn’t, thinking I should be easing off of compulsively tracking sword references, because it wasn’t really adding anything…  but then on 12-13 I got an equally rare hit to “Sword of Angels” from 10-16.  OK, so, now I’m posting, lol.  The thing about the search term for the first hit that’s unusual is the mention of the mouth;  that’s not a word or image one typically associates with swords.  BUT, it has special relevance to ME because of what God showed me when I asked Him what the sword, which I’d had a steady stream of references to, meant:

“Yesterday’s post, “So, what DOES the sword mean?,” was an attempt to collect all the sword references I’d had and figure out what the sword meant;  I failed.  And having failed, I asked God to tell me what it meant.

And today He told me!!

JO says that once you’ve done what you can, God will do what you can’t.  It’s the simple truth.  Here’s the story:

The random Bible generator had given me the following:

Ephesians 6:13 (NIV)

13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

The mention of armor excited me because it seemed entirely possible that a sword reference would be close by.  I looked up the surrounding lines;  no sword.  I had the urge to look up more lines, so I broadened the search again…  but it’s late and I’m tired and I didn’t see it.  I then had the “inexplicable urge” to do a Find for “sword” on the results page…  and there it was:

Ephesians 6:17 (NIV)

17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.”

(From the post “The sword is His word!!!!!” from 9-9.)

And where does the word come from?  The mouth.  Verrrrrrrrrry interesting.  Methinks there may be even more about the sword to come.

I was gathering up a batch of Bible verses for my collection, when one of them stopped me in my tracks:

Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Given that I’ve been fighting bouts of anxiety about what will happen when I email the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) in January, since, although God has promised me that he and I will be together for the long-term, He doesn’t give a time frame, and so I don’t know when that term will begin, or what I might have to endure before I get there (which isn’t a complaint, I’m just saying), the idea of not being anxious, and God’s peace guarding my heart, sure sounds good.

Whatever God has planned is by definition right, and I’ll gladly do whatever is necessary to get the result He’s promised me… but it IS a little scary not knowing what kind of reception to expect from the EMF.  God will get me through it, however…  to the flourishing finish that I know is waiting for me.

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I was rambling on to God today, and started in on what was going to happen after the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) comes back and we have to deal with the situation with him and the “heroic protector friend,” who despises him and thinks he’s a predator, a con man, all sorts of awful things;  she has banned him from her home for life and excluded him from all events under her control wherever they occur.  I asked something like would I need to fix that situation, and got a chill.  I asked again, if I’ll need to fix things between the 2 of them;  bigger chill.  I ventured a 3rd time, if it’ll be up to ME to…  BIG chill, BIG goosebumps on my arms.  That’s a clear yes.

I don’t know HOW I’ll manage this, but it’s clearly God’s will, so I’ll figure it out.  I know that the first step is to not badmouth him to her anymore…  and I’m trying to stop doing it with my roommate, too, so that the negativity around the EMF can fade away.  I’ve thought of things he can do with me that she’ll approve of, such as studying scripture and baking.  I have faith that God will help me figure the rest out.  The crucial thing is that for this to be an issue, the EMF will have to be BACK.

And about that:  I was talking to God about the email I intend to send the EMF after the first of the year.  I said, “I’m sure he’ll write back, but I was sure he’d reply to the previous 2 messages, too…” and got chills.  Was that God telling me that the EMF WILL reply this time, or just giving me a rush of His presence to reassure me that He’s on top of it?  We’ll know in a few weeks.

I had my 4th day with over 70 hits in the last 3 weeks;  not bad for a blog that before this April had never even gotten 70 hits in a MONTH.  I’ve never done ANY blog promotion…  so guess Who I have to thank?

And finally, I found this cool image that I wanted to share;  it’d make a neat t-shirt:

cross red arrowsI wish it was bigger, but the concept is slick at any size.  It’s the kind of thing that EMF might like;  I’ll be showing him soon.  SOON.

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I’ve agonized for 6.5 months about why, after the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) went nuts on me and threw our relationship out, he never, after calming down and realizing the destruction he’d wrought with the one person who actually cares about him, contacted me to try to make things right, and, even worse, why he did not respond to either my b-day message or my message of forgiveness.

I woke up from a very sound sleep today with the TV still on;  it was a show where they look for people’s long-lost loved ones.  There was a woman with a name sort of like mine who was looking for her father, who had left the family almost 30 years before and never contacted them again.  She had tried to find him before, and had acquired a list of every man in America with his same name, and sent every one of them a letter trying to be reunited with her dad…  not accusing him, but trying with love and hope to bring him back.

The searcher found her dad, who seemed very sweet.  He revealed that he had left the family because of some unspecified trouble, but that he had always loved his daughter very much and missed her…  AND, he had gotten her letter, but not felt able to reply.  And WHY did this man feel unable, not only to return to his beloved daughter on his own, but even to reply with so much as a postcard when he got her letter, so that he’d lost nearly 30 years with her.  WHY?  Because…  he was embarrassed and ashamed!!  He lost the 2nd half of his daughter’s childhood, and her adulthood almost until middle age, although they both loved and missed each other, because he couldn’t overcome being EMBARRASSED?!  Shame is of course worse than embarrassment, but how many DECADES would a parent normally give up of being with their child for THAT, especially after getting a LETTER as this man did?!!

When I asked my roommate if he thought the EMF’s failure to contact me, even after receiving messages, could be connected to this concept, he said, “Absolutely.”  And of course my “heroic protector friend,” who had also thrown me out, and in a cold-bloodedly ugly way, about 17 years ago, did the same thing;  realized what she had done, couldn’t bring herself to act to undo it, couldn’t even contact me when I left messages for her.

So…  that sure feels like that’s the reason for the EMF’s behavior.

As a bonus, after MANY weeks of failing to stop imagining negative conversations with, or rather rants at, the EMF… suddenly today (12-11), ALL DAY, I managed to do it.  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  There’s ZERO doubt as to how THAT happened;  God decided that I’d flailed and floundered long enough, and made some adjustment to my brain that made it work.  I’m VERY grateful; I do NOT like feeling like I’m letting Him down!!

Would He even CARE what I fantasized about the EMF if He wasn’t planning to bring us back together…  and SOON?  No.  My faith, as always, is 100% justified, because He NEVER breaks a promise, and this one is rapidly coming to His intended time of fulfillment.  I’m going to email the EMF after the 1st of the year to tell him how sick it makes me to participate in excluding him, and how unhappy the mutual friends that he lives with are being made by this;  this time, he WILL reply.

Stay tuned.


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I REALLY need to push

In my post “God gets tough, and EMF = narcissist” of 12-2, I summed up a variety of messages I’d gotten about the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) with:  “This stuff is fitting together far too well to ignore;  I need to PUSH with giving up the endless stream of negative thoughts about the EMF (not that he hasn’t EARNED them, but that doesn’t matter) and PUSH to focus on how I’m going to bring us out of the current mess with relentless positivity and love…  and of course faith.”

I’ve been trying…  and generally failing.  I think it’s important to tell you that, that despite my unswerving faith and minute-to-minute connection with God, some stuff is still HARD.  I just can’t shake the urge to imagine what I’d say to straighten the EMF out, make him see where he’s wrong, where he’s failed, where he’s BS-ing both me and himself, all those things that I need to NOT do if I expect this shy, socially dysfunctional man to actually WANT to be back with me, much less follow me back to God…  and more importantly, infinitely more importantly, GOD WANTS ME TO STOP DOING IT!!  As he showed me on 12-10:

I got a hit to “Be positive or be quiet” of 12-3.  The visitor went to the front page about a minute later;  logical progression.  The next click, 6 minutes later, was to my archive page from August;  pretty odd, but maybe they wanted to see some post that I’d mentioned that is from August.  28 seconds later, they clicked on the link to a post that is ELEVEN pages down from the top of that “page,” that was NOT a post they could have been looking for, as it has not been mentioned in the past 3 MONTHS, which is a long way from being on the front page, and was a post (all of which is actually shown on the archive page) that I can’t imagine a newcomer could care to read at all, much less look for more of (not that even the world’s fastest reader could have read that whole post in 28 seconds, even without all that scrolling):  “Chills about the EMF…  and the fortune cookie gets freakier” from 8-25, which starts with:

“I’ve been trying, and mostly failing, to imagine conversations with the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) that would make clear that he wants us to be back together and is intending to behave decently.  Part of it is that so much from him has been negative, and a bigger part is my natural tendency to imagine having to battle and debate people into understanding or doing things (which granted comes from a lifetime of experience and from how much it helps to have planned and practiced handling issues in advance), and part of it is that when I DO try to script a conversation between us that would fit the bill it always sounds so ridiculous.”

!!!!!!!!  Especially when you connect it to the FIRST post this visitor landed on.  Furthermore, in that post I also wrote a script showing a positive, caring, and objectively wildly unrealistic first conversation for the EMF and I to have, to try to force my mind into positive thinking.  Still not convinced?  There’s more:

On 12-11, I’ve already gotten a visitor from a place whose name contains a word that is not only sacred to the EMF but is part of his “spiritual name.”  They visited 7 posts in 16 minutes, one of which was the one I’d already intended to start this post with, “God gets tough, and EMF = narcissist.”   On what planet does all that add up to a coincidence?  God is making it plainer and plainer that I’ve GOT to banish the negative thoughts and focus on positive ones.  Somehow, every time I try, it ends up with a scolding or badgering tone…  I just can’t see how to discuss a situation that is flooded with what are objectively pretty terrible behaviors from the EMF and never point out the things he did wrong or imagine him trying to make insulting excuses.  I clearly have to figure this out, though, because I’m guessing that my reunion with the EMF depends on it…  and more to the point, this is something God is asking of me, when He gives so much and asks so little in return, so no matter what it takes I WILL make it happen, with His help.

A couple of minor notes:

I’ve gotten 2 hits in a little over 24 hours from Bangladesh;  both times Feedjit saw the hit but WordPress and Sitemeter did not.  The most recent one is to “Text, teeth and redemption” from 9-15, and I think the other one was too, but I’m not sure.  I just mention it because it’s so odd.

I got a hit to “Thanking God in advance” of 10-1 from Mount Olive, Mississippi;  population 893.  Since I’ve had a series of odd “coincidences” surrounding Olive Branch, Mississippi, this caught my eye.  Just keeping track.

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from JO’s sermon tonight:

in life, we all experience times of loss, situations where it feels like somethin’ was taken from us.  sometimes, it’s because of other people’s choices;  a friend does us wrong, a spouse walks out of a relationship.  other times, it’s because of our own choices:  maybe we get involved with the wrong crowd, develop bad habits, we end up with broken dreams.  we hear that voice tellin’ us again and again, “it’s your fault, you blew it, too bad, this is as good as it’s ever going to be.”  many people are living with regrets, thinkin’ about what they should have done, “if I’d just spent more time raisin’ my children, if I’d just been more disciplined and not hung around those people, or if I’d just stayed in school, where would I be today?”  they don’t realize that defeated mindset is keepin’ them from God’s best.  then there are times it’s not somebody else’s fault, it’s not our own fault, it’s just life;  you’re a good person, you’re honoring God, and all of a sudden you’re facing an illness, caught you totally off guard, you lost your health.  or maybe you’re bein’ your best each day, you’re going to work, giving it your all, but business starts to slow down;  you had more than enough at one time, now you’re struggling to get by.

when we encounter loss, it’s easy to get discouraged, to settle where we are, and to not expect anything better.  but the good news is, our God is a God of restoration.  He never said we wouldn’t have unfair situations, He never promised we wouldn’t experience loss, but He did promise if we would stay in faith He would restore everything that was stolen.  when God restores, He doesn’t bring you out the same, He makes the enemy pay for bringin’ the trouble into your life.  God is so merciful, whether it was your fault, somebody else’s fault, or just life in general, He says He’s not only gonna bring you out, He’s gonna bring you out better than you were before.  get that down in your spirit.  you may have made mistakes, you brought the trouble on yourself, but God’s mercy is bigger than any mistake that you’ve made.  don’t settle there, have a restoration mentality;  God’s not only gonna bring you out, He’s gonna bring you out better.  in the scripture:

Exodus 22:1 (NIV)

Whoever steals an ox or a sheep and slaughters it or sells it must pay back five head of cattle for the ox and four sheep for the sheep.

 Proverbs 6:30-31 (NIV)

30 People do not despise a thief if he steals
    to satisfy his hunger when he is starving.
31 Yet if he is caught, he must pay sevenfold,
    though it costs him all the wealth of his house.

Isaiah 61:7 (NIV)

Instead of your shame
    you will receive a double portion,
and instead of disgrace
    you will rejoice in your inheritance.
And so you will inherit a double portion in your land,
    and everlasting joy will be yours.

notice the principle;  God never brings us out the same.  if we say we’re gonna restore this old car, that means we’re going to bring it back to the original condition, make it look like it did when it was brand new.  but that is not how God defines restoration;    His idea of restore is to increase, improve, promote. make better.  you may have gone through a loss, somebody did you wrong, or maybe it was your fault, you made poor choices.  the enemy would love for you to sit around your whole life and listen to his lies:  “it’s never going to change, it’s been this way too long, it’s your fault, just settle where you are.”  shake off that doubt, self-pity;  you may have suffered a loss, but your attitude should be, “I know my God is a God of restoration, and I’m not only comin’ out, I’m comin’ out stronger, promoted, increased, better off than I was before.  if you’re going to see God restore, you have to have this restoration  mentality;  that means you’re not sitting around nursing your wounds, thinkin’ about what you lost, how many bad breaks you’ve had, no, you’ve got a smile on your face, a spring in your step, you’re expecting things to change in your favor.

somebody may have done you wrong, walked out of a relationship,  but you’re expecting to meet somebody better.  the loan may not have gone through, didn’t qualify for the new house, but you’re expecting a new door, a better deal.  the medical report doesn’t look good, but you’ve got another report, you’re expecting to get well.  you’re expecting to have a blessed, prosperous year.  for everything that you’ve lost, every person that did you wrong, every unfair situation, every sickness you had to endure, God is saying, “that is not the end, it is not over, I still have something amazing in your future.”  if you will have the right attitude, God will take the loss and use it to promote you:  God will use the person that did you wrong to take you to a new level.  God can even use the mistake you made;  you brought the trouble on yourself, but God is so merciful, He’s going to make the enemy pay, He can use that mistake to  take you higher than if you had not have made it.  do your part, and  get your hopes up.  quite reliving all your disappointments, quit tellin’ your friends how it’s never gonna work out, how you should just settle where you are, no, shake that off and have this restoration mentality.  our God is a God of restoration, nothing you’re facing is a surprise, He had the solution before you had the problem, He wants to bring you out better.

Exodus 6:9 (NLT)

So Moses told the people of Israel what the Lord had said, but they refused to listen anymore. They had become too discouraged by the brutality of their slavery.

Exodus 6:9 (CEV)

When Moses told this to the Israelites, they were too discouraged and mistreated to believe him.

if you’re not careful, you can let negative thoughts play in your mind so long that they become ingrained in your thinking, and you become too discouraged to believe. when I tell you God wants to bring you out better, in your spirit, down in here, something comes alive;  somethin’ says, “yes, this is for me, I have not seen my best days, God has greater things in my future.”  your spirit will receive it, that’s where God lives.  but many times our mind will try to talk us out of it;  this is not for you today, you never get any good breaks, you’ll never be healthy, successful,” no, do yourself a favor, at least temporarily turn your mind off, and receive what God is saying.  you may have gone through a loss, but God is going to bring you out better, promoted, increased, healthier, stronger, wiser than you were before.  receive it by faith.  God knows how to restore;  don’t talk yourself out of what God wants to do.  you may have gone through a loss, it was painful, you could be discouraged, no, put on a new attitude;  it’s not over until God says it’s over, and God says, “I’m bringing you out promoted, increased, improved, better than you were before.”  can you get a vision for it?  it’s easy in the tough times to get discouraged and bitter, settle where we are, not expect anything good, but this is what faith is all about;  you’ve gotta believe it even when you can’t see it.

you’ve gotta thank God even when you feel like complaining.  you gotta say, “I know it’s on the way,” even when every voice is telling you it’s never going to happen.  if you’ll have the right attitude, God will take what was meant for your harm and use it to your advantage.  God is in the restoration business, don’t talk yourself out of it.  get up every morning, “Father I wanna thank you that you’re a God of restoration.  I know I’ve been armed with strength for this battle.  you  said you’d make the enemy pay.  my declaration is;  I’m comin’ out stronger, promoted, increased, better off than I was before.”   that’s what allows the most powerful force in the universe to go to work.  it may not happen overnight, God doesn’t say I’ll do this in 24 hours, or 2 weeks, or 7 months;  God doesn’t put a timetable on it, He simply says, ” in due season you will reap if you don’t give up.”  when you go through a loss, when you suffer a setback, God immediately establishes a due season, a set time to pay you back.  but along the way, God is watching;  “what are they saying, do they still believe it’s going to happen, are they still talkin’ about how it’s gonna turn around, or have they gotten discouraged and settled where they are?”  pass the test;  all through the day, “Father, thank you that you’re restoring back everything that belongs to me.”  God said:

Joel 2:25 (AKJV)

And I will restore to you the years that the locust has eaten, the cankerworm, and the caterpillar, and the palmerworm, my great army which I sent among you.

God knows how to make up for years of your life;  no, you can’t relive your childhood, but God can make the rest of your life so rewarding, fulfilling, that you don’t even miss the years that you lost.  you may feel like you wasted years in a relationship that didn’t work out, but God can bring somebody into your life so great, so fun, so friendly, so attractive, that you don’t even remember the years that you’ve lost.  God knows how to make up for lost time. God can accelerate things, God can bring opportunities back across your path that you missed that will thrust you years ahead.  it may not have happened the first time, but God will always give you another chance.  He knows how to make up for lost time.   here’s the amazing thing;  even when it’s your fault, God is so merciful He’ll still give you another chance.  why don’t you quit worryin’ about what you lost, and how you’re not where you think you should be, and say “God, I believe You can restore the years that I lost, even when it was my fault.”  that takes a lotta boldness.

the enemy will bombard your mind, sayin’, “Man, you’re a hypocrite.  You can’t expect anything good.  You should’ve been out studying, working, been more disciplined,” no, this what mercy is all about;  you don’t deserve it, you could live guilty and condemned, but when you shake it off and say, “God, I’m comin’ boldly to your throne, not because I’m perfect, but because Your son made me worthy, and God I’m askin’ you to turn back time and give me every opportunity that I have missed.”  God is not moved when we have that weak, unworthy, “poor old me” mentality;  “I don’t deserve anything good, I’ve made too many mistakes.”  no, God wants to restore, He’s full of mercy, but you’ve gotta have the right attitude. some of you have given up on your dreams, thinkin’ about the years you wasted in the first marriage and how you didn’t spend enough time with your children, how somebody hurt you, no, quit blaming yourself, quit blaming others, God can still get you to where you’re supposed to be, He knows how to restore the years. why don’t you ask God to restore any opportunities that you’ve missed, relationships that are not what they should be;  God knows how to restore the years.

2 Kings 8:1-6 (NIV)

The Shunammite’s Land Restored

8 Now Elisha had said to the woman whose son he had restored to life, “Go away with your family and stay for a while wherever you can, because the Lord has decreed a famine in the land that will last seven years.” The woman proceeded to do as the man of God said. She and her family went away and stayed in the land of the Philistines seven years.

At the end of the seven years she came back from the land of the Philistines and went to appeal to the king for her house and land. The king was talking to Gehazi, the servant of the man of God, and had said, “Tell me about all the great things Elisha has done.” Just as Gehazi was telling the king how Elisha had restored the dead to life, the woman whose son Elisha had brought back to life came to appeal to the king for her house and land.

Gehazi said, “This is the woman, my lord the king, and this is her son whom Elisha restored to life.” The king asked the woman about it, and she told him.

Then he assigned an official to her case and said to him, “Give back everything that belonged to her, including all the income from her land from the day she left the country until now.”

when she got home she found somebody living in her house, farming her land, making $ off her property;  they wouldn’t leave.  she decided to go see the king.  the king wasn’t a godly man, but when she arrived Gehazi was there.  the king was very intrigued about Elisha, and Gehazai was telling him how Elisha brought the boy back to life;  perfectly on cue, this lady walked in the room.  the king was so moved, not only by the miracle but by the fact that this lady had shown up unannounced, perfectly on cue.  he said, “what can I do for you?”  she explained her situation;  the king instructed his officials to make sure that she not only got her house back, but he said, “see to it that she gets all the $ from any crops that were harvested during the 7 years that she was gone.”  what she had lost by bein’ away for 7 years was returned to her in one day;  that was God restoring the years, payin’ her back for what shoulda been hers.

some of you are due payback;  you’ve lost some things, the good news is, they still have your name on them;  your health, dreams, finances, relationships.  if you’ll have this restoration mentality, God will pay you back for everything that should’ve been yours.  God can make up for 7 years of loss with one good break.  God can take 15 years of struggle and lack, and cause 1 person to show you favor that will make up for those 15 years. you may have struggled in your health, in a relationship, in your mind, no peace, but get this down in your spirit, it’s payback time, God is going to start restoring everything that should have been yours.  God knows exactly what you’re owed, He’s going to give you greater strength, joy;  you may have missed out temporarily, but you need to get ready, what you’re owed is still in your account, and God knows how to get it to you.  you may have put up with an illness for a long time, worked at a job where you’re not bein’ treated right, struggled with an addiction for many years;  be encouraged today, payday is on its way,.  God’s not only gonna turn it around, He’s going to restore everything back to you that should have been yours.  the rest of your life is gonna be more rewarding, fulfilling, than anything you’ve experienced before.

Psalm 66:12 (NLT)

… We went through fire and flood,
 but you brought us to a place of great abundance.

that’s what God is going to do for you;  you’ve been through the famine, tough time, but you passed the test.  now God’s going to bring you, not to a place of abundance, but a place of GREAT abundance.  great joy, friendships, health, income.  our attitude should be, “God, I’m ready, I know it’s payback time, I’m not sittin’ around focused on what I lost, and who hurt me, and where I missed it.  I’m focused on the fact that You’re a God of restoration, You’re full of mercy, You know exactly what I’m owed, and You promised You would pay me back and bring me to a place of great abundance.”  that’s the attitude that allows God to restore, make up for lost time, health, wages, victories.  one time in the Old Testament, an enemy army had surrounded the Israelites and cut off their food supply:

2 Kings 7 (NIV)

7 Elisha replied, “Hear the word of the Lord. This is what the Lord says: About this time tomorrow, a seah of the finest flour will sell for a shekel and two seahs of barley for a shekel at the gate of Samaria.”

The officer on whose arm the king was leaning said to the man of God, “Look, even if the Lord should open the floodgates of the heavens, could this happen?”

“You will see it with your own eyes,” answered Elisha, “but you will not eat any of it!”

(God said restoration is coming, it’s going to happen sooner than you think, it’s going to be greater than you imagine, you’re coming to a place of great abundance.  but this assistant only looked at it in the natural;  he said, “it’s impossible, no way that could happen.”)

The Siege Lifted

Now there were four men with leprosy at the entrance of the city gate. They said to each other, “Why stay here until we die? .. So let’s go over to the camp of the Arameans  At dusk they got up and went to the camp of the Arameans. When they reached the edge of the camp, no one was there, for the Lord had caused the Arameans to hear the sound of chariots and horses and a great army, so that they said to one another, “Look, the king of Israel has hired the Hittite and Egyptian kings to attack us!” So they got up and fled in the dusk and abandoned their tents and their horses and donkeys. They left the camp as it was and ran for their lives.

The men who had leprosy reached the edge of the camp, entered one of the tents and ate and drank… 10 So they went and called out to the city gatekeepers and told them, “We went into the Aramean camp and no one was there… 11 The gatekeepers shouted the news, and it was reported within the palace…16 Then the people went out and plundered the camp of the Arameans. So a seah of the finest flour sold for a shekel, and two seahs of barley sold for a shekel, as the Lord had said.

17 Now the king had put the officer on whose arm he leaned in charge of the gate, and the people trampled him in the gateway, and he died, just as the man of God had foretold when the king came down to his house.

the assistant said it would never happen, and for him he was exactly right.  God is sayin’ today He’s gonna restore what was stolen, He’s gonna pay you back for what you lost, He’s gonna bring you to a place of great abundance;  don’t be like that man, “I don’t see how it could happen, I never get any good breaks, I’ve been through too much,” no, that’s gonna keep you from God’s best.  you gotta have this restoration mentality;  “God, I agree, I know it’s payback time, I wanna thank you Lord for restoring the health, peace, joy, finances, ideas, everything that belongs to me.”  that’s what allows God to work.  some of you have let your thoughts and discouragement, what you’ve been through, talk you out of it, but today is a new day;  faith is rising, strongholds are being broken, favor is coming.  because you have this restoration mentality, God’s not only going to restore what’s been stolen, but you’re comin’ out stronger, promoted, increased, healthier, wiser.  you’re coming out to a place of abundance.

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There was an article that I was sent a link for in an email 6 months ago that contained info that I really wanted to keep track of about a natural treatment for stress and anxiety.  I just needed to bookmark it on my primary machine, the only one whose bookmarks are “permanent.”  I’d see that email over and over when doing work in that inbox, but somehow never got it done.

Today, I was archiving work-related records that I’m hideously behind on, with this inbox that I usually only access on another computer up on the main machine,  and was finally getting some progress made, and suddenly had the urge to click the link in the email.  This was a really stupid time to do it, but the urge was strong and I did it.  The page was GONE!!

Using the title and the name of the site, I searched Google…  and there it was, in cache, thank God (literally, as you’ll see).  The last spidering of that page was a WEEK ago, so the page was literally just taken down this past week;  see the TIMING?  Once the cache refreshes, it’ll be gone forever, so I copied the article into a Word file.

And as a side note:  The article was published just 12 days after the EMF dropped the bomb;  again, TIMING.

But why would God have me wait until the article was gone from the site to give me the urge to bookmark it?  Because otherwise I’d just have bookmarked it and forgotten about it, and thus lost the info when the page went down;  only during this window when the article is gone from the site but still in Google’s cache would I see the need to copy it into a file.

This isn’t a huge deal in the scheme of things, but it shows that God will help with the small things as well as the large…  and that He wants to help me keep my stress and anxiety down, too, maybe.

A big stressor now is the thought that the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) will either refuse to answer, or answer in a nasty way, when I contact him next month to try to get things started towards being fixed;  I know that we’ll be back together for the long-term, but as JO points out, God doesn’t fulfill His promises on OUR timetable (nor should He, of course), so I don’t know how much grief and faith-testing I might still need to endure before the EMF actually comes back…  God has given no promises about what sort of behavior to expect from the EMF in the near future.

I know that whatever plan God has will by definition be optimal, and that includes the timing, and the strength, wisdom and depth of faith I gain while waiting and being tested…  but I’m human, and being further mistreated by the EMF is an upsetting idea.  Whatever happens, God will get me through it…  and my relationship with the EMF will be far better than it would ever have been had I not gone through all this.  AND;  this first contact may well lead to the explosive blessings that God has been storing up for me…  stay tuned.

Also in the news:  an even longer search term than the one from a couple of days ago:

“you can’t stop the thoughts from coming, but you can choose to not give them life by not speaking them out. when you don’t speak it that thought will die stillborn. it can’t take root and become a reality; but when you say it you are giving birth to what you are speaking. all through the day you need to ask yourself, ‘is what i’m about to say, what i want to come into my life?’ because what you’re saying, you’re inviting in.”

It led to “Be positive or be quiet” from 12-3;  point taken.

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A friend steps up

I’ve got a new winner in the longest search term competition, and possibly in the weirdest-term one as well:

“god s destiny for your life will come to pass « bizarrely blessed formerheathen.wordpress.com/…/gods-destiny-for-your-life-will-co… 20 may 2012 – (2 am) from jo’s sermon tonight: we don’t realize how much god is in… god will push you into your divine destiny, god knows how to get you to …. come to pass in your life, overcome every obstacle, defeat every enemy, and …”

The term led to several of my posts, the topmost of which was “God’s destiny for your life will come to pass” from 5-20, which is what they were obviously looking for…  but what on EARTH?!!  They had my blog title, and nearly the entire url of the post, part of the first line, parts of other lines, all run together with ellipses…  how, and why, did they come up with THAT as a search term?  Why all the partial lines?  The partial url?  Anyways, that was 1 of 7 hits to that post for 12-7, which follows a record 10 hits the previous day, and in general an upward trend of hits.  Just sayin’.

As I was typing the above, I realized that on VH1 Classic, which I should have turned off but hadn’t, was playing one of the songs that I sing to God every day, but could not remember most of the lyrics of and kept meaning to look up but never remembered to:

Tina Turner:  “Simply The Best”


I call you when I need you, my heart’s on fire
You come to me, come to me wild and wild
When you come to me
Give me everything I need
Give me a lifetime of promises and a world of dreams
Speak a language of love like you know what it means
And it can’t be wrong
Take my heart and make it strong baby

You’re simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
I’m stuck on your heart, and hang on every word you say
Tear us apart, baby I would rather be dead

In your heart I see the star of every night and every day
In your eyes I get lost, I get washed away
Just as long as I’m here in your arms
I could be in no better place

You’re simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I’ve ever met
I’m stuck on your heart, and hang on every word you say
Tear us apart, baby I would rather be dead

Each time you leave me I start losing control
You’re walking away with my heart and my soul
I can feel you even when I’m alone
Oh baby, don’t let go

Aside from that last bit about going, since God NEVER leaves us, it really is a valid song about my love for the Lord.  Was this video being on a coincidence, or was God letting me know that “God’s destiny for your life will come to pass” is…  coming soon?  Stay tuned.

The female half of the couple that the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) is roommates with had been notable for her lack of support of me in these excruciating 6 months since he dropped the bomb.  Our mutual friend, the “heroic protector friend,” had recently tried to say that this other woman had stuck by me and been a real friend to me in this area, and I’d corrected her wild misperceptions.  One of the points that I made was that, although I’d paid endless attention to the other woman’s health issues, she had totally ignored mine, even when I brought them up in emails.  Then with truly astonishing timing, when I mentioned a major health issue in an email yesterday, suddenly this woman is spewing sympathy and url’s for me to check out.  AND, she specifically said how she was so concerned about my health, like *I* have always been about HERS.  My assumption is that the 2nd friend spoke to the 1st one, addressing the specific issues on my behalf…  but Who would guide her to do so?  And if the other friend was NOT involved, it’s beyond the bounds of coincidence, it’s a direct miracle.  Either way, it’s about time that this woman stepped up and started supporting me.

Oddly, I determined in the course of our next emails that this otherwise bright woman had somehow decided that my recent emotional distress was because of my mother’s death 2 years ago, rather than from the EMF…  I’m sorry, but that’s abysmally stupid, especially since I’d told her that I couldn’t go down there anymore because of him.  Will having the truth hammered home make her reconsider her policy of never interfering in the EMF’s relationships? If she’s going to get involved, that would mean that things are about to start happening fast with the EMF…  I can almost taste those explosive blessings now!!

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In yesterday’s post, I said:

“I got a rare hit to “Be passionate about life” from 12-5-11… I just checked the cache for it, and found something interesting;  the cache image had inexplicably, allegedly, been formed on 11-11, but the little Feedjit image showed the readout as it would’ve been when the hit happened TODAY…  How and why did the Feedjit readout from TODAY get spliced in there?  And I just reloaded the cache page to take another look, and now the Feedjit image is just GONE…  as if somebody realized that I’d caught an anachronism and eliminated it!!  I refreshed several times, and the image is still gone.”

The cache page for that post is STILL missing the Feedjit image.  I checked, and now NONE of the cache pages have a Feedjit image… VERY odd.

I also said of that post:  “It’s not one of JO’s better sermons, and I don’t know why or how anyone ended up on that post, or, if it was a spider, how or WHY it would go there.”  One of the times I checked its cache, I clicked the link to visit the adjoining post, “Hair-raising tarot experience #3″ from 12-6, which I hadn’t seen in so long that I’d forgotten what it said:

“I had the urge to use an online tarot site to ask how the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF) was doing.  It had a choice of 20 decks, and it “randomly” picked one in a different language that calls everything by different names, and I don’t mean just because it’s in a different language but different NAMES.  In the spread it laid out, the card signifying the EMF…  had HIS NAME!!  Even beyond the card with that name existing, 20 available decks, 78 cards per deck, 1560 possible cards and THAT card is the one I got?!!!!”

Still pretty hair-raising!!  I got a rare hit on 12-4 to “Interesting signs” from 6-17, in the first paragraph of which is:

“Curious to see what was on that page, I went to that URL.  The 1st post was from 12-6-11, “Hair-raising tarot experience #3″; it circles around the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF). ”  !!!!!!  That post has only ever had 2 hits, the latter of which was 6.5 months ago, so it’s verrrrrry interesting to see it on consecutive days.

I also got a hit to “Praying for those that hurt you” from 8-11, which contains the following quote:

Galatians 4:20 (NIV)

20 how I wish I could be with you now and change my tone, because I am perplexed about you!

Given the need for me to change my tone with the EMF when the time comes, from the butt-kicking one that is in my nature (and which he objectively deserves) to a soft and loving one, I find this not only totally apropos but also to belong to the gentle/soft tongue/words category of verses that I’ve been getting of late.

I also had another big realization about the EMF today.  During our final months, he had used his dismay over how things had gone bad with him and the “heroic protector friend” (due 100% to wrongdoing on his part, although I don’t think he realizes that to this day) as a cause of his hanging back with me;  my roommate and I had dismissed this out of hand as just weak excuse-making.  Today, though, I belatedly made the connection between that and him having said the last time he was here that he worried that what had happened with her would happen with ME…  connected to how he was supposedly suicidal when she kicked him to the curb, although they had no contact outside of group gatherings, and were so far from close that she was unaware that he had neither job nor car, whereas he and I were VERY close…  and when he imagined what would be happen if *I* rejected him, how terrifying must that have seemed to him?  He wasn’t giving a weak excuse, he was deciding if he could RISK continuing the relationship and eventually maybe being rejected…  and deciding “no.”  He drove me away, HURLED me away, in the ugliest and most aggressive way he could manage…  to save himself.

The poor sweet man.  I’ll make it all better for him as soon as God has everything in readiness for us.  When will that be?  When will I have my explosive blessings, unprecedented favor, flourishing finish?  SOON!!


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Variations on a theme

I noticed something in my power bill today;  a little pamphlet called “Understanding EMF.”  I grabbed the prior bill, and it was in that envelope, too;  I don’t remember seeing it, then or previously.  I cut out the title blocks on both of them;  they’re important reminders at the very least, and possibly more.

In yesterday’s post “God gets tough, and EMF = narcissist,” I said:

“I also got only the 2nd-ever hit to “Text, teeth and redemption” from 9-15 other than right when it was published;  the search term was a little hair-raising, as it referred to the time frame after which I texted the EMF on his b-day (4 months).  The results page raised even more hair;  the first result was mine, and the 2nd was from a site whose url contains my first name!!  … I checked out the main page of the site, and discovered…  that he [the Eastern Mystical Friend (EMF)] almost certainly has:  Narcissistic personality disorder”

And my Bible widget then refreshed to:

John 4:35 (NIV)

35 Don’t you have a saying, ‘It’s still four months until harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest.

That’s NOT a coincidence;  that’s God verifying that I got that one right.  And, perhaps also to let me know that He approved of how I squashed my first impulse, which was to run to my “heroic protector friend” and tell HER…  but thanks to JO’s injunction to not fuel the fire, I didn’t, because she doesn’t need to know, and knowing would give her more ammunition against the EMF in the future, and I want her to eventually forgive him and welcome him back.

Also in the abovementioned post, I described the multiple messages to “cut it out already with the negative stuff,” the first of which had come from JO’s sermon “Not fueling the fire” of 11-12.  Then, in today’s list of search terms, I had the following ones for that post (some of them are only different via punctuation marks):

love does not expose. love doesn’t add fuel to the fire. love says, “they made a mistake, but god can restore them. they messed up, but god has a new beginning.” 2
they made a mistake but god can restore them 1
love doesn’t expose. love doesn’t add fuel to the fire 1
love does not expose. love doesn’t add fuel to the fire. 1
love does not expose love doesn’t add fuel to the fire 1
love doesn’t expose, love doesn’t add fuel to the fire 1

Feedjit and Sitememter only captured TWO of those, although they are real hits because of the search terms, and they normally catch search engines hits anyways, whereas WordPress does not…  it’s VERY unusual for both sites to miss even ONE hit.  There was a notable # of “unknown” visits shown on Sitemeter, which might account for some of them, but there’s no way to know;  it’s just plain strange.  In any case:  Why would anyone do all those effectively identical searches, and keep going to what would obviously be the same site over and over?  Even if I hadn’t already gotten an unmistakable cluster of messages on this concept, this would still be pretty big;  combined, though, this is very hardcore.  I’ll be focusing intently on mastering the art of not thinking, or beyond that saying, anything negative about the EMF.

And I got a VERY freaky Google visit, as recorded by Sitemeter:

Domain Name google.com ? (Commercial)
IP Address 66.249.85.# (Google)
ISP Google
Continent  : North America
Country  : United States  (Facts)
State  : California
City  : Mountain View
Lat/Long  : 37.4192, -122.0574 (Map)
Language unknown
Operating System Linux UNIX
Browser Safari 1.3
Mozilla/5.0 (X11; Linux x86_64) AppleWebKit/537.4 (KHTML, like Gecko; Google Web Preview) Chrome/22.0.1229 Safari/537.4
Javascript disabled
Time of Visit   Dec 3 2012 11:23:16 pm
Last Page View Dec 3 2012 11:50:24 pm
Visit Length 27 minutes 8 seconds
Page Views   2
Referring URL unknown
Visit Entry Page  
Visit Exit Page http://formerheathen…ress.com/2012/10/01/

Google visits are normally ONE page, ZERO seconds;  since when do they spend almost half an hour on any site for any reason, much less on TWO pages!!  Could it have been…  someone, some actual person, on the Google compound, that visited?  Whoa…

I got a rare hit to “Be passionate about life” from 12-5-11 that only Feedjit caught;  it was from Germany, go figure.  It’s not one of JO’s better sermons, and I don’t know why or how anyone ended up on that post, or, if it was a spider, how or WHY it would go there.  I just checked the cache for it, and found something interesting;  the cache image had inexplicably, allegedly, been formed on 11-11, but the little Feedjit image showed the readout as it would’ve been when the hit happened TODAY, which is only the case when it’s a Google hit…  so it must’ve been German Google,  maybe?  But why the old cache date?  And why the outdated # of email subscribers and list of archive pages?  How and why did the Feedjit readout from TODAY get spliced in there?  And I just reloaded the cache page to take another look, and now the Feedjit image is just GONE…  as if somebody realized that I’d caught an anachronism and eliminated it!!  I refreshed several times, and the image is still gone.  God of course doesn’t make mistakes, so I wondered if maybe an angel that’s sending me these little puzzles made the error…  and got a big chill at the thought.  Does that mean yes, or just that it gave me the creeps a little bit because it’s so Twilight Zone?  Ok, time to go to bed…!!!

Edit 9-26-13:  I thought about that cache anomaly yesterday, or call it today since I haven’t been to bed yet, for the first time since I wrote about it…  and 12 hours later, here comes a rare hit to this post!!

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